[[Crush Update]]

Ok...so I have a big update on my crush situation. You see...as you know...it's been on my mind for the longest time...whether he likes me back or not. Well, it got to the point for me that I could not take it any long. So, I did something that most of my friends would never expect me to do. I sent him a long online message telling how I feel about the whole thing. That is something I do NOT do...it takes alot of courage for me to do something like this. Here is what I said...

Ok...so this has been on my mind ALOT lately and I just really want to get it off my chest. My dad told me the other day that he told you that I like you. He said that you didn't say nothing about it. I was kind of upset @ first that he told you but then I got over it. I was just wondering what you think about what he said? and what did he exactly say? I mean I've sorta got the feeling and assumed that you are not interested in me in that way. If you are not, that is totally cool and fine with me. I can not force you to like me...and if you do not...I promise you will not hurt my feelings. I'd really like to stay friends with you because you are such a great guy and have been a great friend to me so far. I just needed to get this off my chest because I just want to stop waiting for trying so hard. If you wanted to wait and see if you started to develop a feeling for me as such then I would I'm not saying that I wouldn't wait. I just am new at this and I don't want to set myself up for heartache so I'd rather know now than try really hard and get hurt later. I actually thought my age was why I felt like you didn't like me but I don't think so anymore. Anyways, I guess I'm done letting out all that I had to say. I can't wait to hear what you have to say. Remember I still like you as a friend no matter what happens you are an awesome guy. -Christine

I thought it was sweet and it felt SOOOOO good to get it all of my chest. I knew I would get a response back soon. Sure enough I did. This is what he said...

well ms christine i have had a feeling for awhile that you like me..it duznt bother me.. matter of fact i think you are a pretty neat lady, i admire your strength in christ and relationship with your dad..its awesome.. id like to get to know you better...you are right about my feelings, cant say i dont like you, i guess just not ""like that"" at this ppoint ...really havent known you long enough i guess... i have been burnt in the past by rushing into feelings, especially with someone who hasnt had much experience..honestly im not very good at the whole dating thing either..the fact that you mentioned it shows your maturity and self confidence.. i definately think we need to keep talking and hang out because i enjoy hanging with you.. does this make any sense??

I was kind of upset at first but I was kind of relieved at the same time. Because I totally knew exactly what he meant and he was absolutely right. We should definately get to know each other better and who knows...there could be home for us in the future. We talked for about another hour after that and we had some really good conversation. He is not going to let me let this whole situation affect how we interact with each other now. I told him...NO no no...it definately wouldn't. Because I want to stay friends because he is a really great guy...one of the best I have ever known. So, yes I am someone hurt...but very very happy and relieved at the same time. I am so glad that we are going to get to know one another alot more and we'll just have to see where life take us.

He's such a jokster and I love it. Sometimes guys can be better friends than girls sometimes so that's why I am really excited to see where life is going to take us in our friendship. I think we are going to have alot of fun. Who knows? Maybe he'll become my best guy friend. Because the one I had...I do not see anymore and we sorta drifted apart so...we'll see.

Much Love,

Christine